I often think of you more than I should
sometimes pure
sometimes obscene
I was repressed for a long time,
I guess that's just what happens
there's times I lay restless
at the stroke of midnight
picturing different strokes
of finger against skin
an act of worship
mapping out each detail-
there's things I want
but mustn't
too carnal. animalistic. raw.
god, I want to destroy you
I want you to destroy me
tear my fucking skin off
I'll scratch yours, red and aching
kiss me and I'll fold the universe in on itself
you want to know what I'm thinking?
come closer, darling
be a good girl and I'll tell you
show me how pretty you are when desperate.
June 2025