eternal never-ending grief
attached like a fucking parasite
feasting on losses I've never had
perpetual mourning
how do I move on from nothing?
I grieve nothing,
it sticks to me nonetheless
you are my greatest source of joy and pain
no one else hurts me like you do
it doesn't feel like you love me
can't feel it
your ghost is more familiar to me, your shadow
the space you leave behind.
you don't love me, do you?
what do you want from me?
why don't you want me?
why don't you want me?
unfurling fingertips on fire.
why don't you want me? why don't you want me?
where are you?
you're never there
October 2025